I’m a recovering heroin addict, before i got clean i had like an out of body experience looking at myself and how shit i had become. I remember thinking i just wanted everything to be over, i was leeching off everyone i knew,i was failing as a father and just life in general. A few weeks later i got into a local rehab and this Oct I’ll be clean (off hard shit) for ten years. I also had an abscessed tooth once that made me want to drive my car into on coming traffic on the interstate.